Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ♥11:52 PM
i sobbed and wept when bloggingthe tears kept streaming down my cheeks uncontrollably.
What a sight!
i missed my dad so much,he's gone in the twinkling of eye.
i couldnt stop the passage of time at all.
very sad to say i didnt manage to see him for the last time
yet i just took him for granted when he is alive,
i didnt treasure when he is around,this is very disheartening
i know past cannot relived,
I felt free from all the years of guilt within me for not
showing my love for my dad
He was the only person to have loved me
unconditionally up to that point in my life
the day when i played
my role as a mum i came to realise
is not easy to be the character.
untill now i dont have the gut to face him
cos i made a biggest mistake in my life.
this mistake caused me to live with regret
I have never told my dad I love him while he was alive
im clear headed i wont have the chance to say im sorry.
even though if i say it out aloud,he wont be able to hear it again.
to atone my mistake,i carried on his responsibility and i will
scrimp every cent to take care of this family esp my beloved mum
,i promised him i will fulfill his wish
so no matter how tough it is,i will go on.
he've returned to his eternal world togther with jesus
i really wished he will rest in peace.
he'll be the only one in my heart forevr
the only one in my life
who helps when i fall
i prayed that we will be family again in our next life.
i want to be my dad and mum 's daughter forever.
i will savour the memories with relish
so friends,pls treasure when they r around,dont live
with regrets.if u love someone,u ought to express ur love to them today
tomorrow might be too late.
lastly,dad im sorry
thanks for taking care of us
thanks for everything,
dad rest in peace
just leave it to me
i will take care of everything
i really love u
&
i will miss you forever
